~Only Five Years Old~
I wish I could tell you just how
much hurt I feel,
I needed love,
But that love was not real.
These feelings are so terrible,
They are killing me inside,
A little girl, only five.
I wish it wasn't real,
These horrible things I feel.
What's wrong with me?
Does anyone know?
I was a bad little girl,
This is what I was told.
No more dolls, No more crayons,
No more toys for you.
It is time to pack these things
up,
And do as I tell you to.
Because With grown up things,
Toy's don't belong.
To them I wasn't a little girl
anymore,
I was theirs to do their will.
They did not care how this made
me feel,
I had to do what I was told.
I was only five years old.
With them I was left all alone.
They did things to me as if I were
grown.
Although, I was only five,
How was I to know?
I was left with so much pain.
My life was being torn and ripped
apart.
What they did to me made me feel
insane!
Washing my childhood down the drain.
~Gin & Marie~
~I Just Want To Feel Pretty~
As I look in the mirror
My face I want to hide
Scrubbing it so hard
Hoping to erase what I feel inside
Dirty and ashamed
I see it as my reflection
Does everyone see what I see?
Powder, blush and lipstick
Will cover up my flaws
I will know what it feels to be pretty
If only just for a while.
Beginning my day
Confused about who I am
I can hide it though
Under this makeup and under these clothes
Going through my day
As if I am happy with who I am
But walking around with a feeling that nobody would want
Making jokes about myself
Yeah, that keeps the tears from showing
When deep down inside
I just want to feel pretty.
~Gin~
~Walk With Me~
Take my hand and walk with me
When you get tired, then I will lead
I’ll carry you when the going gets tough
I’ll hold your hand when the road feels rough
There’s no need to worry, for I am always near
To hold you in my arms, or brush away a tear
When you love someone as much as I love you
There is nothing, my dear child that I wouldn’t do
Some day soon you will see
When I bring you home to live with me
I loved you enough, through everything through and through
I loved you enough, to hang on the cross for you.
Love,
God
